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As it’s my first post I’ll start with saying hello and introducing myself. My name is Peter, I’m full-stack web developer using .NET and Angular. Goal of this blog is to encourage me to study regularly by publishing here some newly learned or interesting stuff.

Now let’s jump into subject of this post that is beginning of my redemption arc to be the “real” engineer. After 3 years of working as web dev, I realized that I had taken wrong direction in my personal growth.
I was really enjoying discovering new things in my job but I had gone too far maybe got too comfortable and started aiming for architecture role things forgetting the fundamentals of software engineering.

For a long time I feel huge pain from the fact that life is so short and I will not be able to learn about so many things that interest me and I am a person who is fascinated by many things. It also hurts me that even though I always want to be I will never be the best, because aside from the fact that I focus on too many areas, I already know that I am stupid and there are certainly smarter people than me who are the bar not to jump over. Still, I am not discouraged by all this and I want to continue to be the best version of myself so that at the end of my journey I can say to myself that I have done enough and I am proud of myself. I also lost my trait somewhere, in which I first try to understand a topic or tool in depth, and only then proceed to use it. That’s why, I’m going to take a few steps back and explore the paradigms of computer science.